The fact that I miss you so much that it makes me sick to my stomach to think of you. The fact that I'm almost brought to tears just thinking about what shit's like right now. It's stupid that you may be angry with me - or even completely hate me right now. Because I didn't do shit wrong...I'd own up if I did, and I know I didn't. But then again, you never know what people say nowadays.
Regardless of what you've heard, when you hear something, you need to come to me about it immediately instead of instantly making some sort of conclusion or judgment. I'm the only one who knows everything I do - other than God that is. (The man knows what's up.) If I knew I did something wrong - I would have 'fessed up and apologized a billion and twenty times. Trust me, I'm more mature than you may think.
I think it's really stupid that you're pretty much kicking me aside, and pushing me out of your life. Especially since you're not giving reason behind it. I hate it - I hate this. I don't understand it, nor do I really want to. I just want things to fall back into normalcy. Not that it was 'normal' per say, but you know what I mean. I just want it like it was before. I miss you. I miss you in my life, I miss having you there. I went from talking to you every day, sometimes for hours on end, to not talking to you at all. Shit's fucked up.
Don't lie to me and tell me how important I am to you, and how amazing I am etc. then just forget about me like that. I'm not about to just roll with that. I'm sick n' tired of being a doormat - I don't deserve it. Mean what you say, and say what you feel. I prefer honesty to bullshit. No matter what.
I miss you. YOU know who you are.
You know where to find me.
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posted by LyssaLoveless at 7:09 PM